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My New Year’s Resolution And Why I Am Almost Naked In This Picture

I became so obsessed with conceptual photography during the summer of 2016.  I had far too many ideas that up until now, I am still unable to do them. So typical of you Hanna. On my first attempt, I used my little sister as my model but she was too stubborn, I was unable to properly execute what I intended to do.

But I wanted to do more. One day, I was walking around our house in Santander and saw this old rusty bathtub that has been sitting there for so many years. Right there and then, I got an idea to do a bathtub shoot. A boudoir photo shoot in particular! Now the problem: who is going to be my model?

My family is a conservative bunch so it is very unlikely that they will do my bidding on this one. I am the only one with a wild streak. Despite my peaceful phlegmatic temperament, I can be crazy sometimes. So without hesitation, I volunteered to be the subject of this shoot. I asked my siblings to help me with the setup and had my sister’s boyfriend, John, take the photos. My mother cleaned the tub that morning so all we needed to do was to fill it in with water, dry leaves, and flowers. I had everything all planned in my head. But what happened next was unexpected!

My sister, Judi, suggested filling the tub with as many dry leaves as we can instead because we can’t get enough flowers to cover the tub. Our mother forbade us to touch her hibiscuses. We did. Just two hibiscus flowers. Ssshhh.

Katol inday?

The hooligans definitely enjoying what they are doing to their Ate!

Forgot to cover my denim shorts! Haha.

Facing the wrong direction. The shadow destroyed this photo.

I’m bringing sexy back! ♫ ♫ ♫

About to become the next crispy lechon…

But there was one problem that I did not foresee in that photoshoot. We did the whole thing during the unforgiving hours of noon! Blame it on my unusual sleeping patterns. It was extremely hot that it was so hard for me to keep my face as undistorted as possible.

But that photoshoot was indeed one for the books! I didn’t expect one crazy idea would turn out to be that fun. (It wasn’t fun after that. I had a painful sunburn and I got itchy all over. And I had to shower twice.) 

Anyway, why am I suddenly talking to you all about this?

Because I intend to be crazier this year. That is my New Year’s Resolution. This is the first time I am making one, by the way.

Not crazy running around the streets of Colon naked, but crazy like I did last summer. I want to be fully committed to achieving something even if it means going beyond my limits.

I no longer believe in ambiguity. I no longer believe in lukewarm love.  It’s either you are passionately and deeply in love with something/someone or not. No in-betweens this time.

I am excited what the Universe will let me experience this year. Hopefully, I can travel to more places and meet more people from different walks of life.

To end this post, let me share you one of my favorite quotes by E.B White,

“Muddiness is not merely a disturber of prose, it is also a destroyer of life, of hope: death on the highway caused by a badly worded road sign, heartbreak among lovers caused by a misplaced phrase in a well-intentioned letter, anguish of a traveler expecting to be met at a railroad station and not being met because of a slipshod telegram. Think of the tragedies that are rooted in ambiguity, and be clear! When you say something, make sure you have said it. The chances of your having said it are only fair.”

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